First Thoughts

I have contemplated starting a blog for some time now, and have finally given into my urge so to speak and started one! I constantly have so many thoughts running through my mind, that I just felt like this would be a good way to sort them all out. This first blog is basically just going to introduce who I am and what is on my mind now.

I have been super stressed with school, work, and my social life! There simply are not enough hours in one day to do everything I need or want to do. Being a full time student and having a part time job is so stressful but is definitely worth it. With my job it is giving me a good gateway into my future career in the retail industry. But working it sometimes makes it hard to keep on top of my school work. I am doing my best and trying to be the best student I can be, and of course trying to keep the parents pleased! I just have to remember who is most important and that is me..and I need to keep myself happy.

I am definitely good at putting myself and my feelings on the back burner and placing others and their feelings ahead of my own. As much as I think otherwise, it really shouldn't be like that! I have undergone some major changes in the past year to help me realize just that! I have come to the time in my life where I have made myself truly happy and have actually discovered who I really am. I am pretty proud of myself for this because some people don't figure this out until much later in life. As I have said, I feel like I have found my true happiness and am content with my life now. Just wish there was less stress, but I don't think such a life could exist for anyone!!

I have recently been dating this guy who makes me happier then I ever thought I could be with someone else! He is everything I have ever wanted in a guy..almost like I placed an order and it was promptly delivered!! We really complement each other and share the same passion in music. He is truly great and talented! At times though, I can tend to prevent myself from being completely happy with him because I have never actually experienced someone who treats me right. It is almost as if this is everything I have been waiting for but can't accept that it is actually happening to me! Like it seems to good to be true. But I just need to step back, take a breath, and enjoy the good thing that is happening to me and know that I am blessed!

For now I think I will leave it at that! This really bounces around and may not even make sense, but that tends to happen when I write! I just write what is on my mind at that moment even if is doesn't go along with what I previously wrote!